Well, it seems strange to think that it is actually 2012. As a child, I couldn’t conceive of myself ever getting “old” (as defined by a child, anything over 20 is old, over 30 is ancient, and over 40 must surely mean imminent death). I now look back over 41 years and it seems to alternatively be an eternity and a blink of the eye.
Having put some thought into the new year, I have come up with the following resolutions (in no order of importance, just how they are coming out as I go):
1. Let go of my overwhelming desire to “lose weight.” So much of my life is consumed with the scale. It’s on my mind when I get up in the morning (pee, drink a sip of water and weigh). It’s on my mind as soon as I get home (weigh, then pee and get a sip of water and weigh again). It’s on my mind before I go to bed (see above). I always think the same thing no matter what time of day that I weigh, “Maybe it’ll be lower the next time.” I’m sick of living like this. It’s asinine. I know in my logical mind that I don’t need to lose any weight. I’m at a healthy weight. True, I’d honestly like to lose another 10 pounds, but do I HAVE to? No. My BMI and weight are within the normal range and my body fat, while a bit high, is also on the high end of normal.
What I need to focus on is EXERCISE. I need to focus on building muscle and fixing my broken metabolism.
2. Spend more time with Kiersten. She has grown up on me and become a beautiful young woman–not a little girl any more, but still my baby girl. I love her more than words can express and I want to maximize the time I have with her. She’ll be on to the next phase of her life before I know it.
3. Get back into coupons and rebates. A couple of years ago, I was really focused on it and really made some money and got a lot of stuff for pennies or free. I have let it go by the wayside for over a year and it’s time to get motivated and build the stockpile up again. Also, I want my walls painted red and if I do enough rebates, I can easily come up with the money for it without having to use “bill money.” (I want new furniture, too, but that’s a whole different kettle of fish.)
4. Clean and organize more. My house is always cluttered. I don’t like to clean. I keep the kitchen clean and I keep clothes washed–not a problem. I cook all the blasted time. But I’m not Suzy Homemaker. I do what I absolutely HAVE to do and get on Facebook or Twitter or look at recipes or weight loss sites. I think it means I’m a little lazy. I don’t want to be lazy this year. I will need to come up with a plan. I’m a planner. I write things down in notebooks and on sticky notes and also on random pieces of paper. I can’t usually find these notes, lists and other bits of randomness, but I do write it down. This year, I will formulate a plan of attack for cleaning and organizing and I will follow it (I also need a plan to keep up with my plan. I’ll work on that.)
This is not an all-encompassing list of what I’d like to accomplish this year. But it’s a start. Or a plan, if you will.